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My dad contacted polio several months before my fifth birthday. I only have two distinct memories of him standing and walking before he became a quadriplegic.

My grandparents were building a house along the Hudson River using bricks from an abandoned icehouse. The property was over six acres, partially wooded, with a large garden, garage, outhouse (ooo!), boats and remnants of piers. My brother and my dad would go fishing when we visited, and I remember them coming up from the riverbank with their fishing poles and big grins, and Dad standing there with an eel wrapped around his shoulder. I’m sure that’s where my fear of snakes came from!

I also remember Dad teaching me how to ride a two-wheeler with my brother’s bike. He taught me how to get started using the bottom step by our front door and off I went, across the street and right into the neighbor’s hedge. I was furious that the hedge got in the way. And I remember falling and not being able to get back on the bike without a step to help get my leg over the bar without losing my balance.

My mom recently asked me if I remembered the cowboys and Indians at an amusement park. I absolutely do remember them, but I don’t remember my dad being there which surprises me. There were two amusement parks north of Glens Falls where my other grandparents lived, one was called Storytown and the other was called Frontiertown. Storytown had nursery rhyme characters, rides and buildings like the Gingerbread House from the Hansel and Gretel fairy tale. Frontiertown had a pillory, jail, dunking pond, buildings made of logs, and a stagecoach ride that went through the town and into the woods. Indians on horses and on foot attacked the stagecoach as it went through the woods, and one Indian grabbed my ankle. I was petrified that I would be scalped and screamed! I guess that’s why I was never big on westerns, either TV shows or movies, and I was undoubtedly traumatized by the Indians which is why I don’t remember my dad being there.

These are my only memories of my dad before he was stricken with polio that aren’t triggered by photographs.

My dad grew up during the depression and told stories of putting newspapers in his shoes to cover the holes and keep his feet dry. As a child his family didn’t have much money, and he was determined that he, his wife and children would have a better life. He wasn’t going to lose sight of that goal, even after he contacted polio and became a quadriplegic. We rented a room in our home to student teachers. He had my brother and me clip coupons. He watched the sales and stockpiled nonperishables and he saved money . As a teenager, I was quite embarrassed to go grocery shopping and purchase thirty rolls of toilet paper at one time. We wore hand-me-downs and purchased used clothing. My brother and I sold greeting cards, he had a paper route, and I sold Fuller Brush door-to-door. I babysat and worked in the local grocery store during high school and my brother sold shoes in a high-end department store. I was barely out of grade school when Dad had me sitting at my mom’s desk writing checks for bills that needed to be paid. Mom would sign the checks and I’d put them in the mail. I had my first checking account in junior high school. Dad taught me all about household finances.

When I read MMM’s postings (www.mrmoneymustache.com), I think about my dad. He definitely would have approved of MMM’s spending habits. Dad didn’t buy new cars. He watched the classified for demos or models just a few years old. He knew all about the depreciation of a vehicle once it left the showroom. He read “Consumer Reports” before purchasing new items, and he purchased used items as well.

He taught me never to buy consumables such as food, liquor, cigarettes or gas on credit. I always adhered to that lesson with the exception of gas. It is much more convenient to purchase gas with a credit card, especially since gas stations changed to self-service. He preached never to purchase more on credit than you could pay off the following month when the bill came due. If you couldn’t pay it off, you didn’t buy it.

He was frugal. Many might say it was out of necessity and that would be absolutely true in the early years of his disability. There were medical bills and any savings had gone to living expenses until Mom went back to work. But later, when financial pressures had eased, he was still frugal. I think that most people who lived “without” during the depression never lived far from its shadow.

Dad spent most of his days reading. He read the local daily paper and the Wall Street Journal, biographies, novels and magazines. He had little patience for daytime television and, although cable existed, popular cable wasn’t launched until the 1980s. I’m not even sure that Dad would have been willing to subscribe to cable. I think he would have been more apt to purchase a VCR when movies became readily available for rent. Mom wouldn’t take him to movies with sex, swearing or violence. These restrictions limited his movie viewing. He could have watched some awesome movies while Mom was teaching!

Not only was Dad up on current events, one of our friends would say, “he could talk about anything to anyone” whether it be automobile mechanics, the Viet Nam war or the stock market. Dad taught himself how to invest starting with a handful of stocks. By the time he died, Mom and Dad had been living on the earnings from their investments and banking Mom’s teacher’s salary. He had prepared them for a comfortable retirement.

I learned his lessons well about budgeting, spending and saving. I wish he had been alive to teach me how to invest. By the time I had a career, some savings and a 401K, he was gone. It is one of my goals to learn how to invest prudently in retirement, and I think of him constantly as I read articles, blogs and books on investments and wonder “what would Dad have done”.

My dad loved sweets, and he especially loved Heath bars! (My brother says he also liked Jujyfruits and malted milk balls, but hey, this is my story). Now I’m sure you can imagine that being a quadriplegic and confined to a wheelchair meant he needed to be mindful of what he ate…no exercise program to help him lose weight.

Dad was always sending in boxtops and proofs of purchase for refunds. Refunds of coins were deposited in a bank, shaped like a bull that sat on his bookshelf . When he had the desire for something sweet, he’d tell me to take a quarter from the bull and I’d walk to the local grocery store for a six pack of Heath bars. I’d feed him a bar before Mom got home from work and hide the rest of the bars beneath his underwear in his bureau drawer. Every so often Mom would come across his secret stash, and we’d have to find a new hiding place the next time! I can still hear Mom saying “Mac, you shouldn’t be eating these. Where did they come from?”

It’s a memory that makes me smile as I liked nothing more than to make my dad happy and we were in cahoots together. If I got into trouble, so did he!

Where does one start in remembering your dad. Scott and I went to school from kindergarten through high school. I’ve known your dad since I was able to comprehend. Consequently I knew your mom and you that long also. Your mother was a dedicated wife to your dad. Many times Scott had b-day parties, during grade school years, at the house. I remember always being greeted by your father in a warm and gentle way. He was happy and interested in talking, even when it was difficult for him to speak. In junior high years, I would go to your house and get Scott before going to a dance at the junior high. Your dad always wanted to see us before we left. A mutual desire. He would with his keen sense of humor and hidden, but very evident, smile make a comment referring to girls. I remember spending, one on one, time with him since Scott was never ready or on time. He used to discuss current events and what was happening in my life. In high school years, when Scott and I had our licenses, he always wanted to see us before we left. He had words of wisdom for whomever was driving. A kinder more gentle man, outside of my dad, I never knew. Be proud and be thankful that even with his obstacle he was a great father and example to follow.

I have to preface this story with some background to set the stage a bit. My husband and I were both in college; he was in his senior year in New Jersey and I was in my freshman year in upstate New York. We decided to get married and planned to elope; however one of his aunts caught us as we were going to get our marriage license. He couldn’t lie to his favorite aunt and off she marched us to his parents who said they would give us a wedding in three weeks if we wouldn’t elope. My parents, on the other hand were very upset that I had quit college and were refusing to have anything to do with a wedding. I’m not quite sure how it happened but the next thing I knew, my future in-laws, fiancée and I were driving 160 miles north to meet my parents.

My mother-in-law tells the story of going to buy my wedding dress. My dad came along with my mom, mother-in-law and me to the local mall to shop for a wedding dress. Dad, a quadriplegic, was sitting in his wheelchair outside the dressing room, voicing his opinion as I tried on each dress. When I came out in “the” dress, my mother-in-law said he had the brightest smile and said “that’s the one”. She remembers that I immediately agreed, although she could tell that I wasn’t quite sure. (She was right as I thought the dress was a tad too short.) She thought I said yes to make him happy as she knew I adored my dad. And she was right about that as well.

“Responsibility – the state or fact of having a duty to deal with something or of having control over someone.”

I learned this lesson of responsibility at a very early age. My dad was a quadriplegic as a result of being infected with polio. When he was finally able to come home from the hospital after two years, he needed an attendant to feed, bathe, dress and take care of his personal needs. My mom had to work in order to support our family and was fortunate to have earned a degree in education. She returned to teaching school which she had been doing prior to staying home to raise my brother and me.

Over the years we had many caregivers for Dad. They didn’t need to be educated or trained. They needed to be responsible, compassionate, caring and treat my father with dignity. Some of these caregivers were absolute gems; trustworthy, dependable and conscientious. And some of them were irresponsible, lazy and dishonest. Sometimes the caregiver wouldn’t even show up for work. It happened too many times over the years; I was probably seven years old the first time. I think the caregiver may have called to say she couldn’t come, because I remember Mom and Dad discussing what they should do. Now I absolutely adored going to school, but someone had to stay with Dad as Mom had to work and there was no family close by. I do remember shedding tears because I didn’t want to stay home. I was too small to get Dad dressed and out of the rocking bed, but I could shave him, wash his face, make him breakfast and lunch and feed him. I could hang the newspaper from the ceiling with a wooden frame and clothes pins so he could read it in bed. As much as I hated missing school, these were special times with my dad. He used to say I was his favorite daughter. And my response was always “but I’m your only daughter.”

For the caregivers to simply not show up, was very irresponsible to say the least, and it was potentially life threatening… to leave a handicapped person with limited breathing capacity unattended for an entire day. Fast forward to when I was thirteen… the junior high school was half a mile away from our home. One day several of my friends and I decided to sneak off the school grounds to go to my house for lunch. I doubt that Dad even knew we weren’t allowed to leave the school premises during the school day. We walked in the house to find Dad rocking in his rocking bed, not having had breakfast or lunch or the use of the bathroom. I was devastated to know he was so helpless in the situation, and needless to say I stayed home the rest of the day.

It wasn’t until 1968 that technological advances provided my dad the ability to use the telephone, to make and receive calls. He could wear a headset and with a slight squeeze of his hand call an operator for assistance. This was a godsend as my brother was already off to college, and I would soon be gone as well. Dad could call for help and would no longer be left to a caregivers’ lack of responsibility.

Taking care of my dad and watching others take care of him helped me develop my sense of responsibility in my personal and professional life. In my career I was always accountable, went above and beyond the requirements of my job, took on extra projects and exceeded my own objectives. I am sorry that Dad did not live to see my successes in the business world and the personal lessons that I learned along the way.

My Aunt Muriel has given me permission to post an e-mail of some of her memories of my dad (Mac to everyone).

When I first met Mac I hadn’t even known my future husband (Mac’s brother) for long. I had a date with John one night when he called saying he had to cancel. His mother had just received a call saying that Mac had been rushed to the hospital paralyzed and unable to breathe. Of course polio was immediately suspected.

Many months later when I accompanied John to visit Mac and Nancy (about 50 miles from my home), Mac was in an iron lung and he was difficult to understand. As time went on, he was able to speak more coherently and later go without the iron lung for short periods. He could speak by gulping air, called frog breathing. We visited them many times and never did I dread going there because we always had good visits and lots of laughs. Mac had a wonderful sense of humor and had his share of stories to tell. One in particular comes to mind. Nancy took him out while she ran errands and he sat in the passenger seat while he waited. He had chains under him which were used to lift him, and a bar in front of him (before seat belts). Some little black boys came up and peered in at him. Finally one of them said, “hey, Mister, what’s the matter – are you in jail?” Mac told them that he had polio, to which the little boy replied, “didn’t you get your shot?” Actually, the Salk vaccine came out shortly after he contracted polio. Mac always got a kick out of things like that.

Scott and Sue were very young when this happened, but fortunately Nancy had a teaching degree, although at the time she was a stay at home mom. So she became a teacher in a nearby elementary school. Mac followed sports, the stock market and had many interests. Fortunately he was given an electric typewriter and since he could only move his head, he learned to type using a mouth stick. He actually became quite proficient at it. Nancy took him to many sporting events, up to visit his mother frequently, even down to visit us outside of Washington, DC. Then they toured Washington and places weren’t as handicapped accessible as they are now.

My father said many times that what amazed him was when Nancy would instruct the kids to do something, if they didn’t move in a timely manner, Mac would say “did you hear your mother”, and boy, did they move completely forgetting that he couldn’t have done a thing.

My dad was stricken with polio in 1954 at the age of thirty and was a quadriplegic as a result of the disease. For twenty-five years until his death in 1980, he lived dependent on a respirator or his rocking bed for breathing and in his wheelchair … and this is one of our memories.

It’s serendipitous that I just wrote about my family’s excursions and getting dad out of the house as one of my aunt’s memories was about going to summer theater with Nancy and Mac (Mom and Dad). Because Aunt Jane is blind, she recited this to me in a telephone conversation we recently had.

My aside… when we went places, we were always the first to arrive and the last to leave. Being early was important as getting Dad into some buildings was not easy and we needed help to get him up steps if there were some (no handicap ramps back then). We left later so that we didn’t block the aisles or exit doors as our progress was slow pushing dad in his wheelchair.

Aunt Jane started off by saying that people were always amazed that Nancy and Mac went to so many places and were surprised to see them attending various functions. She remembers one summer evening attending an outdoor theater production with them. When they got back to the car, Nancy realized she had locked the doors with the keys in the ignition. Aunt Jane stayed with Mac and Nancy walked back to the theater looking for help. By this time the parking lot was empty and everyone had left the premises (no cell phones back then). While she was gone Mac thought about the situation. Upon Nancy’s return, he suggested that she take one of the stays from his corset and slide it on the inside of a car window left slightly open. After many tries and much persistence, Nancy was able to unlock the car and off they went.

It’s a perfect example of Dad’s ingenuity and a great memory from my 92 year-old aunt (Mom’s sister).

Note: Dad had to wear a corset that contained an inflatable bladder. When he needed assistance in breathing a hose from a respirator would be plugged into the corset and the pressure in the bladder would force his lungs to expand and air would be pushed into his nose and airways.

My parents were married over thirty-three years and after Dad’s death, Mom remarried for another thirty-two years. My brother and I are quite verbal and filled with pride and gratitude when it comes to talking about our mother. Mom was committed to my dad; she was faithful, caring, and she loved deeply. She gave my father his life back after he was diagnosed with polio in 1954. Their marriage vows “to have and to hold from this day forward, for better or for worse, for richer, for poorer, in sickness and in health, to love and to cherish; from this day forward until death do us part” were sacred and they were committed to each other. Dad would not have survived without her. Not only did she take care of him and care for him, but she supported our family and took care of my brother and me. For those who didn’t know my dad or haven’t read the previous post… Dad was a quadriplegic with limited breathing capacity who lived in his rocking bed or wheelchair from the age of thirty until he died days shy of age fifty-six. Caring for my dad meant feeding him and putting him to bed every night for twenty-five years and taking care of all his personal needs. Mom was never off the clock except for a few weeks in the summer. She was selfless.

It does sound like this marriage was one-sided, but it really wasn’t. Dad was pragmatic, smart and had a wicked sense of humor that helped in their daily living. His great memory saved Mom from the day-to-day running of the household. He kept track of the bills and finances, planned the meals and knew what groceries were needed… all in his head. He honored her. And he gave her his love and gratitude.

A highlight of Dad’s week was just getting out of the house, similar to moms who stay home with their kids and can’t wait for some adult conversation and entertainment. Mom always made sure that dad got out in the world. Now taking Dad out was not an easy task, especially in the winter when it was snowy and freezing cold. There was a ramp along the side of our house so he could be pushed down to the driveway (no attached garage). There was a hoist on the roof of the station wagon which, with a harness, straps and chains, could move him from the wheelchair to the front seat. The hoist was difficult to operate in the winter as the oil would thicken making cranking difficult. Mom would need someone to help put the wheelchair in the back of the car as she couldn’t lift it herself. Of course when we got older, we could help. Remember this was during the fifties and sixties when technology for the disabled was just developing. There were no vans with chair lifts.

I think our family visited more places and attended more events than the average family during the fifties and sixties. We went shopping, to church, to plays and musicals, to high school basketball games, to movies (no swearing, sex or violence, please), to our gramma’s for Sunday dinner and on trips to visit relatives hundreds of miles away. We went to the Smithsonian and the U.S. Bureau of Engraving and Printing as well as other Washington D.C. landmarks. I have a visual in my head of standing on a catwalk made of metal overlooking the production floor where the printers were printing U.S. paper currency and Dad being pushed between the equipment because wheelchairs couldn’t go on the catwalks. We even went to the New York City World’s Fair in 1964. We pushed Dad through the corporate and country pavilions and exhibits. I especially remember GE’s Carousel of Progress, probably because it still exists today in Disneyworld, albeit updated to retain its relevancy.

It’s said that when daughters get married, we choose someone like our dad. When I got married, I did exactly that! He was smart and educated, had a sense of humor and common sense, and knew how to build and fix stuff. He was industrious, a great cook and from a wonderful, warm and loving Italian family. I did not know that he lacked love and commitment… to me and to his children. Thirty years later, I still can’t believe I chose so poorly. And I am still in awe of my parents’ marriage and of those I know who found the love, commitment and faithfulness that is often so lacking in today’s world!